Thursday, August 31, 2006
Going down in flames.
Its just another one of your moments.
I'm not here,
Really.
A four word line to conclude Us.
Anws,
JY, JY, JY, JY, JY, JY! :D:D:D:D:D:D
Baby, You never fail to amaze me. x)
Spongebob and snails. xDD
You got me where You wanted.
There ain't no good in goodbyes,
Maybe, someday,
We'd find beauty in goodbye.
10:39 PM
I had enough of your needy moments
When Your words sliced through the air,
and right onto break my heart,
You should have known that everything would just be gone.
I keep asking myself,
What if I'm letting go of the only thing that makes me happy?
And so, I keep hesistating whether i should go.
But,
i realised,
I would also be letting go of the only thing that could make me sad.
So, there.
Fair and square.
Oh, Btw,
Demelza Ang Liting, Please take care. <3
And,
JY, Thank You,
I love You. :)
A made up romance, my soliloquy will read
as I go down in flames.
12:10 AM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
I could honestly say " Fuck You, You unfair bitch."
But I won't.
Why?
Cause i'm simply too lazy to say anything.
"Nothing is fair in this world"
When J said it this to me, It strucked me hard,
So why bother fighting fate when it was meant to be this way?
But For D:
Fuck You, You insensitive bitch.
When even heroes bleed,
Would You save me?
11:42 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
When all You've got to be is strong,
Move along.
Finally. :)
You stole my heart before I could say no.
6:44 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
When losing You,
is effortless,
You can have,
a breath on my last dandelion
2:59 PM
I’ve come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?
I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don’t come and go
Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
-
I hate rashes.
And I don't know where to go from here.
12:01 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
But Today,
I've wasted today,
For You are on my mind.
9:46 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Dattebayo
I'm over all that, And right now, I have every intention to type those insensitivity words you've thrown so carelessly at me again. Plus, this is MY blog so I can type what the hell I want but after everything, I realised so what if I do put whatever You've said on my blog. Nothing between You and I would change or maybe it could take a sharper turn for the worst, and cause the guilt strings to be tugged more than ever. Besides, Whatever I type, might not be clear and assumptions and jumping to conclusions is inevitable and now, Wouldn't that be one hell of trouble.
Well, thats if You still care.
Gave school a miss, Headed to the doc then went over to trim my hair. I slept quite alot today and well, I'm pretty happy. I haven't been eating well, but i seem to have grown fatter and that makes me belly belly sad. But on the other hand, M, J and my maid said i've grown taller. :) Yes, You're still taller la Bird, Don't burst my bubble so fast.
I heard Trng was hell and honestly, I was not surprise, except maybe the fact that Coach V is still our coach cause someone told me that Coach V was no longer gonna coach us. But well, I heard from C, she's gonna choose her team on wed and I had a wonderful timing to fall sick. I heard she yelled her favourite words a million times and strew insults at my team mates consistanly and that makes me really irritated although I'm not team lover its just that I feel like she should shut the fuck up if She doesn't know anything about Us at all.
Esp abt how we want her so much to coach us. I'm actually smiling to myself now, (No, I'm not crazy.) to actually know how far into denial She is. And so You can actually imagine me, smiling to myself whenever she says that during the next trng. Oh, what a joy. :) Okay okay, I bet no one is on the same channel as me so forget it.
I'm gonna give school a miss tmrw so hooooray, more sleep and more doing nothing at home, and this time, my mum ain't gonna be at home, wth am I gonna do man. I kinda miss school without its endless boring lessons.
I miss Faith, Bird, Vickoo, Charis, Anna, Candice, Sok and even BungNa although I get bruises from her abusation due to her lack of anger management. Still, I've hardly missed a day of school so its okay la horrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. xD
okay, maybe i will go jogging tmrw if I'm not too sick already, I seriously need to shed my fats like Asap.
Have a V-O-N-D-E-R-FUL day at school tmrw ppl while I sleep and rot at home tmrw, Don't hate me. You will get your turn, Someday. :)
Yes, the keyword is Someday. xD
Goodnight all. :)
-
I'd be Your friend anytime,
But now.
I didn't know,
Now I do.
But, now that I do,
I don't want to.
Cause, Now, I don't know if it stands anymore.
(Yes, as usual, your tiny brain needs to read that twice. xD)
And guess what,
this is back to You,
You don't know either.
Now when I need You the most,
You runaway.
12:30 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Today,
My obituary appeared on the newspaper,
And You hit the headlines for being my murderer.
7:10 PM
Y'KNOW WHAT, I CANT STAND YOU. I THINK YOU ARE THE UGLIEST SHIT IN THE WORLD THAT YOU MAKE ME NASEOUS, SO WTF PLEASE GO AND DIE. I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE, _____ WAS RIGHT, YOU FLIRT LIKE FUCK SO GO AND DIE REALLY. IF YOU WANT HER GO AFTER HER LA, DON'T BE SO SNEAKY AND ANNNOYING LIKE FUCK. I BET YOU WATCH HER FROM AFAR LIKE ALWAYS WELL, WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL HER NOW, STOP BEING SO FUCKED UP AND EVERYTHING.!#$%^&*((*&^%$#$%^&^%$#$%^&!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO LIVE WITH SOMEONE LIKE YOU ARD. FUCKED UP BITCH.
No, I'm not talking abt You,
Don't make assumptions.
Oh, i forgot,
You don't care,
Cause we're over now.
Happy?
Do be.
i think its the fever.
OK,
ITS THE FEVER.
I
HATE
YOU.
How's that?
Nevermind, I'm wasting my time here on You,
I'm going back to sleep.
6:20 PM
Girl, You're like an angel from above
I see forever in Your eyes
I can see heaven in Your smile
And when I hold You close
I don't wanna let go
Its such a sweet song but why do I feel it isn't meant for You anymore?
Maybe it was just one stab too many.
I had my share of closing doors.
1:31 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Maybe You could swing by,
Save me.
And after all,
You're my Wonderwall.
8:22 PM
She won't come.
Just when I thought I'd be okay with the way things were.
Hey girl,
I wish You'd stop messing with my head.
Cause I'm trying my best to move right along.
-
Love me in the morning please.
Hahaha. :)
Oh and about You,
I'm too lazy to get angry with You,
Just don't do it again.
Gnight people, Fever burnt my brain.
What if You were the love of my life
12:50 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Who was I,
I have a freaking headache, one of my eye is sore and my stomach hurts like crazy. I don't wanna die so young.
School was super slack, Poa was a draggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg, After "forever"(FOREVER AND EVER, BABE. XD), a period past, and after another "forever"(FOREVER AND EVER, BABE. yep, i'm still at it. xD), 15 mins passed. The poa teacher is just not so good la, everybody misses Mrs E. Except me, cause well, I never really interacted with her much not counting the times she corners me at staircases, so there. ;)
I hate P.E now, cause of Volleyball, Its like some self-inflicted pain sports, at least for me, cause I get major bruises and I kinda look like some abused kid. BungNa is like good at it la, cause she's forever (YES, FOREVER AND EVER, BABE.) punching the pillars and acting all nunnery about it. So there, B and I agree we rather play Rugby.
Chem was okay, Mrs C always as cute as ever.
Recess, Met Ms A and well, she's funny la. She makes us laugh like crazy. ha.
Headed out with Faith and Glyn later.
F: Do You think mrs W will give us back our geog paper tmrw?
G: Huh, later tomorrow she come in and ask " have you even done Your geog paper yet?"
Okay, G is funny la, Yes, Mrs W is forever (FOREVER AND EVER, BABE.Okay, its getting annnoying.) so forgetful.
Ps with D. :)
Ate alot, Fat, fat. :)
Oh here comes another :)
My concience called in sick again says:
I'll love you until the end of time (:
AWW, THAT MAKES 7, WAIT, 8, I just realised that J tagged.
AWWWWWW, ANY MORE ANYMORE? :)
Alright, Here we go, again and again. :)
WILL YOU LOVE ME IN THE MORNING?
ANYONE? XD
Okay, okay, enough.
I think I caught BungNa's emo bug and that sucks cause now,
The thinking starts,
So byebye everyone. :)
-
Who was I to make You wait.
7:47 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Here we go, a bow. :)
This is when it reads,
The end.
And the credits start coming out.
and babe,
this time,
The re-wind button is jammed.
-
Would You love me in the morning?
Forever, and ever, babe.
Monkey, says: I'd love you in the morninggggggg
Anna; says : forever and ever babe
Fa i th ♥ says : FOREVER AND EVER BABE.
AWWWWWWWWW. (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Watched Click :) with Faith, Anna, Candice and Sokyiiiii. :) Candice is such a kanchiong spider please, She wanted us to rush to the bus stop but when we reach, the bus like take FOREVER to reach la. (FOREVER AND EVER, BABE. xD) Ha, I got to have an eyecandy galore la, not bad. xD
Oh, guess what,
Candice: lovefool. says:
I WILL I WILL WILL LOVE YOU IN THE MRG, NOON, NIGHT!!!!!
WOW. :) My personal nick no more space already leh. Oh well, Candice should love me more, I just put it on my nick. Tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Oh, and thank You ah Candice, Always cheating on me. xD
The show was damn touching. :) And all of us started to tear, Yes how very gay but ah well. Well except Sokyi laaaa, She just stoned. BEST. You win my applause my friend. haha. macs and everything was fun. :) Thank You all la. <3
They make my day. :)
Here comes another. xD
The Queen is busy doing art. She'll speak to special people only. Haha. says:
haha, i'll love you in the morning, noon, night, spring, summer, autumn, winter, cny, christmas, hari raya, deepavali.
Aww. Hahaha. Okay, its quite fun leh , So here I go again.
WILL YOU LOVE ME IN THE MORNING?
Anyone? xD
Hahahaha, Oh well. TESTS ARE OVER SO I'M KINDA HAPPY. Okay, And my stomach hurts so byebye people.
Noche!
And,
I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off You.
11:09 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Here we go, take a bow.
I could seriously teach You how to do that. First, We stand opposite each other, Smile (Not frown.) and bend your little head and i will bend mine. Here we go, a bow. :)
Ha, I'm sorry, i'm just a little cranky from posing as Mister Rain man. Rain always make me a little cranky or maybe its cause i can feel a flu coming but well, unlike BungNa, I'm strong and I can do better chicken dances. :) Don't talk to Yourself tomorrow and whack wet socks and me tomorrow please.
After school, Went home with Charms, Jan, Theodora and Joanne. I almost called Joanne something else, she doesn't have a Joanne face lehhhhhhhhhh. xD Some commotion in the bus, Some stupid man slapped Charis on the face, and she started to swear very loudly and well, it was just , shocking I guess. What a day.
I hope it rains tomorrowwwww, More rain dances. :)
Okay, I seriously need someone to save me, I'm crazy.
and honestly
I think I loved you more
If that's possible I think I loved you more
It's over now and I can't save you
Some things are better left unsaid
And all the promises I made were so stupid
Maybe we'll be able to be friends
If that's possible.
This song makes me smile. :) Really. Oh Maths test tomorrowwwwww. Now, this is the time when ppl like whoever is reading, better start to take a moment. Close your eyes (You can open them if you like lah. But close better, trust me. xD), Put your hands together and pray for a miracle for a inevitable disaster. Taking my maths test. Pray that I will AT LEAST pass la okay? Ha.
Oh, and,
Jan, Faith, Theresa, Bird, Jiale, Demelza and some others, thanks for being there. (: It must be a chore listening to me. I <3 You all. (: :)(: :)Eh, which one nicer ah? xD Okay, I think its a fever or another denial. xD
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You couldn't save Your own life let alone save a life.
Last night was hell for me cause You finally opened my eyes to how insensitive and selfish You actually are, I mean, hello, I don't know what else to say. I'm disappointed, but I know it doesn't matter shit to You anymore so why should i bother wasting another effort to be disappointed when I've wasted enough on You. But hey, I don't regret a moment with You :) But I guess,
Enough will be our finally conclusion, for now. ( It could be like persuasion, Wait, I bet You don't even remember where is it from. Ah welll (: )
Maybe I might fault in the future again cause I might never be able to let You go, maybe I might be too soft and run back to You or maybe, just maybe, You and I will be friends. :) So much uncertainty, so much disappointments, expectations all fitted into this tiny picture of You and me. Who knows, this picture could be just another line in your book and mine, it could be a chapter but if it ends here, I guess, You are just gonna be another that shines brighter than anyone else. And even with all this shit going around, I can honestly say,
I'm happy :)
Cause we are over now.
5:56 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
This post is gonna be about You, so if You couldn't care less about it, Fuck off and just piss off.
I guess we were just a tragedy huh? All we ever were, were a fucked up tragedy and You? You were my greatest sin. You were my greatest sin and we were a tragedy, thats how we were, if You wanted it to be put simply.
It was sorta mutual yet fatal, I knew You were going to leave when I receive your first text, I guess I should have stop replying from that moment then I could still live in my sweet denial that You're still here.
" Whatever. I'm already gone."
Bam, those words hit me hard in the face. The greatest fall I ever had, and this time, It hurt like crap but I guess I was not surprise so What the hell, I guess I should be gone too huh. I really wonder if You ever thought for me, What a great time to break it off I say. Then again, You never really had great time management, Or should I said, You never could do the time management part. And You know what, it just hit me that I wasn't the only selfish one here, You were too. I guess I took everything, the promise, the hurt and everything as fucked up and as this and all you did was care if You were happy or bitter. I guess, I had known better.
" would you release me from my promise."
What the fuck, If You were going to leave, If you were going to break the promise, why make me do the shit, so thank You, girl. Now, when i look back after all this angst, I'd fucking regret releasing You from it. And guess what, Here's to getting the shit again. Cheers. ( Shall I get the champagne?)
Hey baby, my life is a little messed up now, cause I never knew how to love You less. I never could learn how to yeah. My bad, My bad. And guess what, its not like I didn't knw how much we were falling apart already, I did all I could, You just said " You're weird." Ha ha, Guess what? I think you're abnormal. Dig that, I guess, You should really know, You're abnormal.
So, I was thinking, If you even bother to read this, And You get pissd. Well, Hello there, I'm just as pissd so You know, Spare me some will You? I'm just a human, gimme a break here and lemme rant cause You know what, I'm just at the verge of just breaking down.
But, maybe, just maybe, You'd think I had enough of taking the tears already huh? Maybe if You'd step back and see what the fuck You're doing, Maybe just maybe, things would have been a tad different. Then again, that wouldn't be You.
The You, I love,
And hate.
Oh the irony.
okay, guess what, i'm tired of ranting already.
Pray for me people, I have a biology test tmrw and guess what, You chose the best timing ever to break it to me. All You cared about was whether You were happy or not. Oh wait, Don't get me started AGAIN. I hate to do repetitions like You.
You left,
Again, and again, and again.
I could go on, all night.
And for the record, I am not surprised.
" Why? Do You still love me?"
"No, Gdnite."
Goodnight.
Okay, okay, so that whoever's reading doesnt think this is fucking emo,
Goodnight world. :)
Oh, doesn't smileys do wonders. Ha.
Noche. <3
-
She burst into the room, hoping and wishing, that she'd still be there. But she realised she's been sitting outside the door for far too long, in sweet denial. She shouted her name into the empty darkness, but she was just too little, too late. The one she love, had already gone.
Heaven got back their angel,
And now,
I'm missing an angel.
I lost You somewhere along this bitterness,
And lost myself in sweet denial.
10:06 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
"You're weird." Was all that she could say.
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time.
11:51 PM
What its like to be hung on a string.
I met E last night. And i realised i've met most of T's ex-es already, i even met her brother, I might meet her parents next or even her childhoood lover. xD
Planetshakers were awesome, But it was kinda short and they kinda didn't sing the songs that i wanted them to, esp " Run to You" and "Reflector". After that, we bummed into guess who? Rifle, We were so shock, that we just stood there dazed, and she was on the bus, She even offered us a ride back to Kovan or School. We were like omg, We can't believe it. Hah.
After that, Macs. L,V and R came along and wah lao, they are funny bunch la. Haha. Home later, Charms is afraid of my moody mother, who isnt? xD
Anyway, a lot has been going through my mind and its just a little messed up sooo i should just stop here, I hope the rest of You out there are doing fine. (: Oh, happy next week of Common tests. This year is going way too fast. ha.
-
"all the good times we had"
Did we ever had that, I sometimes wonder.
All was it just a fragment of my imagination?
-
I could fall asleep,
just listening to You,
Breathing.
1:12 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I should just shut my mouth,
and wave Goodbye.
Too little, too late.
10:14 PM
Dear You,
Have i mentioned that I didnt meant to do whatever i did?
And that i'm sorry?
I know i have a million times already.
But, I just wish there was some way to fix things the way we are, yes, I know we do have silent conversations now, way too much, and i know its my fault. I know you know whatever is happening now but You just pretend You don't. As I've said before, You are prolly the person that knows me the best and I don't knw why the fuck did this happen. I don't even know where to place You now. I guess I'm just hurting You more and more. I just hope you will be happy yeah. Please be.
I know this is coming way way too late but lastly, I know i said this a hundred times already but,
I'm sorry.
too serious, too soon.
-
And I said, " I would stay up all night, if i had known how to save a life. " But, she just shook her head and turn away, not believing a single word I said.
12:27 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
I just wanted You to
If I were to finish that sentence, there would be ten thousand things I would have written down and thats when I realised, I was expecting too much from You. Too much from someone like You, its not that You are THAT bad, its just that You ain't ____ nor ____. You're just someone that would never be able to _____. And Right now, I'm hanging on a string. Yes, Again. But I guess, I'm not sure if we are suppose to be this way or what. I guess, its just _______. Actually, I don't knw what the hell is suppose to be in that blank either. But horrrr, I think that expectations normally really leads to disappointment. tsk. I guess the thing that bugs me the most is, You don't remember.
Wah laooooo, Dory bory gory is just belly velly gelly bored like a mop gob. Okay, i think you can tell how bored I am.
Faith the ah dai sends really nice songs. (: Actually hor, I think i can imagine something happening already. Ahh well.
National day celebration was okay la, A and V were seriously wild and with E and L's gang behind, You can imagine how wild it was. Okay, if You don't. Crazily wild.
Lunched with Charms,
She went to the doc later on.
Rest well la, pest. :D
Charis's drama thing later on, kinda nice la. She screeches her way through the drama thingy and she didn't even have to act la, her screeching is like what you hear everyday in school.
Which,
Is,
Deafening.
Ha, I'm lazy to continue.
What if You were the love of my life?
Honeybunny. xD
school is a bore
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You know You love us. xD
9:37 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
:D
You painted a picture,
happier than i can afford.
Let's get messed up and listen to probably,
the best mixtape I have.
5:10 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
Sandhouse. xD
have to rush off soon so i will make a short post.
Thought the day was gonna be another =\ day but it turned out to be a (((((= day.
Days with B, V and A are getting more fun. Hahaha.
" I promise I won't."
(((((=
Okay, I'm a happy person but i wanna watch lakehouse soon.
And I would have stayed up with You all night
7:03 PM
Just when things were starting to work out,
It came crashing down.
Perhaps,
We were never meant to be.
Where'd we go from here?
Worst,
Am I gonna lose You again?
-
I didn't mean to hurt you, I hope You're gonna be fine. take care.
but I'm slipping in between You and Your big dreams
12:07 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
" I don't want."
Those words hit me hard, Sometimes, I wonder why its so hard for You to say yes or whatever. Its like you're so reluctant. Oh well. Whatever.
I hate it how when something bad happens, the rest of the stuff go wrong at the same time. And it like this huge load just falling upon You. I'm lazy to elaborate anymore.
Geog is going to bore me to death,
Ahh well.
What's new?
Nothing has changed.
No promises.
9:55 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Lovely eyes.
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to say anymore,
I guess,
I guess, I shall not continue cause somehow or another,
it will lead to something,
and i don't even know what is right or wrong anymore.
Today was o-kay. Thanksgiving was okay too. V and A were mimicking dear BIG bird. Laughed like crazy. And for that moment, B shld knw, The past, present and future(AHEM.). Yes, Bird, AHEM! XD
The only thing that's clear to me,
Is You. ((((((=
I wanna watch lake house. xD
If i had knew how to save a life.
10:22 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
You lost me.
-
And, once again, I'm lost in You.
Today been a draggy long day, we played with wax to pass time. B, V, A and me started to start clicking pens to annoy ___. Then B and I proceeded to slam shut our macbeth lit book. When we got bored, B, V, A and me pushed back our chairs together. Unfortunately for us and yet fortunely for one, the floor was too slippery so we didnt make the loud screeching noise we intended to make. So, lastly, we started hitting the tables. Try bobbing your head while tapping your hand on the table, its GREAT FUN! :D Ha, all this with En-Ci desperately trying to make us stop so she used this pen to jab us. And this pen is NOT, i repeat, NOT any normal pen, it gives you a TINY(Yes, its an understatement) electric shock whenever you press it. Guess what, SHE USE IT TO JAB US. Super freaking evil. Hahaha.
D: EHHHHHHHHHH! YOU GUYS BETTER NOT BURN DOWN OUR CLASS AH, WE ONLY HAVE ONE DOOR!
This is what Denise said when she saw us playing with the candles, its not so funny now but well, when she said it then, it was. But yeah la, Seriously, How fair is that we only have one door. Tsk.
And when Faith left for her rehearsals, she sent me a text to tell me not to fall asleep. Well, I hate to break it to you, Faith. But almost the WHOLE class fell asleep. XD
Okay, I'm too lazy to continue.
((((=
I think im moodswinging.
But still, today was a (((= day. Ha
If you can hear me
And know that im right here
I heard Your heartbeat
It took away the fear.
7:20 PM